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  📍 📍 📍 📍 Hey, everyone. Welcome back to the podcast. We are officially in to season two of the now and new eternal postpartum podcast. And last week, I was able to publish an episode just to share with you. Uh, some changes that are happening around here, some really big changes. So if you have not gotten a chance to check that episode out, I would definitely encourage you to go back and give it a listen, because it'll give you some context and some understanding for what has changed and where we're headed.

So make sure you give it a listen. But we are officially into season two. I'm really excited about this season.

This week, I feel really led to expound on some really big statements that I have made over the last few weeks on social media. A lot of you guys are connected with me on Facebook, and I know that you have seen some of these statements. And you might be wondering where my head is at.

You might be wanting a little bit of clarification, and I realized that social media, especially Facebook is not really the greatest way to. Uh, expound on topics or to unpack things. And so I'm really excited just to have the opportunity to do that through this podcast. So I definitely want to focus my attention today um, like I said, kind of expounding on some of those big statements that I've made. And really getting into why it's so important for us, especially as believers.

If we say that we are believers in God and that we follow Christ. Um, then it's so important for us to truly take ownership and accountability of our spiritual health. So, that's what I want to dive into today. So buckle up and let's get to it.

So I mentioned that I have made some pretty big statements on social media and I kind of just want to take some time, just a few moments. I'm not going to go super deep because I do have spaces where. I am planning just to go a little bit deeper about my faith. Um, I've started a weekly Bible study on Wednesdays every Wednesday at 11 o'clock central standard time I'm meeting together. With, uh, whoever wants to join, honestly, and we are studying the Bible together on zoom. And right now those Bible studies are about me only 30 minutes long. And I feel like in the future, probably the very near future, we're going to have to lengthen the the time of the study because. Man...

it's just so good. We can get into some really great discussion, but. Yeah for those of you who might be interested in that, I want you to make sure that you send me a DM. I'm going to link my Facebook profile, where you can send me a DM message. And just let me know that you're interested in joining the Bible study and I will send you the information over. But I plan to go deeper about biblical topics in our weekly Bible study.

So I'll touch on some things here and there throughout the podcast. Um, there might be some episodes where I feel led to just really dive into a biblical concept, but today that's not it. Like I said, I have made some pretty big statements on social media and. Um, a lot of you guys have been following me for quite some time.

A lot of you guys have connected with me and voiced your concerns about my shift in faith. And I accept that and I receive that with so much love and I want to make sure that I am communicating to you guys. In a way that's truly graceful. Um, that my words are seasoned with salt. And, um, yeah, because there's a huge shift taking place with me.

And I am taking my followers along with me. Some of you guys are going through a similar shift and so that's really exciting just to be connected with you, but. Um, a few weeks ago. I made a statement that I, had been struggling with using the term and the title God, when I'm referencing the most high God and I have been conflicted with this for a couple of months, I have been feeling like. I need to differentiate in my speech because God could mean anything to anyone.

The word "god" oftentimes points back to idols and false deities. And I had that realization and spirit began to be just extremely grieved when I thought about that. And then I thought, you know, well, how do I differentiate if I want people to know that I serve the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob. Then, how am I going to differentiate in the way that I am referencing God. And so the shift in my language began a few months ago, I started specifically referencing and saying, I serve the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, or I serve the Most High God, you know, the Supreme, God he's above every other God.

And this was an interesting shift for me as well, because. I grew up in a background where we were taught that there was only one God. And that other gods didn't exist. And so this was an interesting internal conflict that I was facing, like, um, well, other people are serving other gods, are those false gods real gods? Or

If we know in the Bible that it says, thou shall have no other gods before me, then what are those other gods that are being talked about?

So I just went down this huge journey of questioning and honestly, my journey and my walk with the Most High has been one where I have not been afraid to ask really hard questions.

And I feel like it's so important, especially as believers for us to ask really hard questions and to not only ask those questions, but to dig deep for those answers. As believers, we have a responsibility to grow in our faith to be sanctified, to be purified. If you are in the same place that you were a year ago. That is a problem.

If you're in the same place that you were five years ago, that's an even bigger problem. The point that I'm trying to make here is that we have a responsibility to grow. That growth is called sanctification. We are encouraged as believers to come off of the milk, which means that there's a point in time where we should no longer be on baby food, drinking milk.

And we should really be chewing on the meat of the word and diving into harder concepts because this is how iron sharpens iron. This is how we truly make disciples of other believers. When this doesn't happen, what I've observed is that um, people just begin to blindly follow people who they feel like are more strong and mature in their faith.

We kind of use other people as a crutch for our own faith. Because we haven't taken the time to really dig in and to challenge our faith and to truly grow spiritually. And so you guys are going to hear me talking about this a lot in future podcast episodes. I realize that this is probably going to turn a lot of people off, but I want you all to realize my heart here. Because even though I might be sounding a little sharp. I want you to realize that I'm coming from a place of love. When we stay stagnant, when we are lukewarm,

it gives access to the enemy to be able to infiltrate aspects of our lives. And this is honestly what I have been experiencing over the last few years. This ties in with my story concerning depression and how I overcame depression and not only how I overcame depression. But I received deliverance from a stronghold that had dominated my life for over eight years. And the release of that stronghold did not happen until I decided that I was going to put my faith and trust fully into the Most High God and submit to Him and present myself as a living sacrifice, that's holy and acceptable unto Him. And that's what we are called to do as believers. Our walk, our journey with the heavenly father and our Messiah.

It goes beyond just believing. And, um, to be very honest, I'm very concerned for the state of the body of the believers as a whole. And. I know that this is a season where I am called to truly challenge people, to not only reclaim their physical health, their emotional health and their mental health, but also their spiritual health.

Because like I tell you guys all the time, all of these aspects, interconnect. And the Most High has shown me in a very real and tangible way, how our spiritual walk intertwines with our physical, emotional, and mental. And I'm really excited again. And just to dive into more of that and future episodes of the podcast, but. Like I said, I've made some pretty big statements.

I shared with you guys that, um, I've been having this struggle with simply calling the Most High God, "God.". And so I began to ask those questions. Uh, really towards the beginning of the year. And a few months ago I was watching a movie. I don't know if you guys are familiar with the movie.

God's not dead. But I was watching this movie with the kids and. There was a point in the movie that, um, highlighted a character that believed in Allah. And we know that a law is the diety that, um, is worshiped throughout the Islamic faith. And the kids were confused. In the movie, there was something said about how there's no god but Allah and. Uh, the kids began to ask me, do they not believe in the same God that we believe?

So I had to pause the movie and break down to them that other people worship other gods and they have names for their gods. Um, but we worshiped the Most High God. And, um, the God that we believe is the most high God is the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob. And, um, honestly I love their little questions and I love being able to unpack that with them.

But. It also challenged me in a way, like how come all of these other religions and how come and other belief systems we see that other people have actual names for the gods that they served. And I began to question certainly, and surely the name of my God is not God. Because again, God is a generic title.

Lord is a generic title. When I am referencing my heavenly father as Lord and somebody from the streets can also be referenced as Lord. For me, that was a problem. Like.

 

My God is set apart. My God is holy. My God is Supreme. My God reigns in the heavens.

My God created heaven and earth. My God is sovereign. And so why am I putting him on the level uh, any other God, first off. And also on the level of a common man. And. It was really interesting because like I said, I started having these conflicts and I started to shift my language and use the Most High God. Um, or the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob, so that I could be specific. But I didn't even know where to start to begin to truly study.

And honestly, I have been studying so many other things and, I didn't. Intently go out, seeking to try to study this topic in this concept. But

not too long after that I had entered into a fast and on day one of the fast I had a friend send me a podcast episode. And when I listened to the episode, I was just in shock and awe about how much that I had in common with the podcast host. I could not believe that she was sharing a journey that I was going through myself. And I just felt so connected to her and listening to her on this podcast. And eventually she shared in the podcast episode about a book that she had written titled, what is God's name? And me, my mind is blown at this point And this was so special to me because I feel like all of last year I have heard the most high God's speaking to me in ways that I have never heard before.

 

And I want to be clear here because sometimes when people hear that, you know, God has spoken to them, we might think, you know, that it's an audible voice. But there's something that happens when we strip ourselves of distractions.

And when we intently seek to hear from God. And for me, that has looked like god speaking through others to me, when I am praying about something specifically, and somebody comes along and without me even sharing, they start to speak directly into those things that I was praying about in my intimate, personal time with God. It has also look like God giving me dreams in which I know that this message is directly from Him.

So it's really encouraging and interesting to know that when we pay attention to his voice, then his sheep truly do hear his voice.

And he has used people to help me come to answers and revelation on those questions. And I have seen God's hand intricately and intimately at work in my own personal life. And I've been a believer for almost 30 years. And I have never experienced this. And so I feel so humbled and so gracious. Just to be able to be experiencing the Most High in this way. And when you begin to experience these things, you want, nothing other than your brothers and sisters in Christ to experience the same things that you're experiencing to experience the same freedom to experience the same healing, to experience the same deliverance, to break free from strongholds.

And again, this is where my heart is. And so it it's really difficult for me when I begin to unpack and uncover, um, things in my life that I have believed for so long that I thought were true that I stood, you know, two feet planted into the ground like this. Now this is truth. Y'all this is, this is absolute truth.

And then when I uncovered and discovered with humility. That is not true. There is, it's like a grieving period that happens.

And that grieving for me included the emotion of anger. Because I view it like this. If there are hundreds and thousands of years of untruth that we have to unpack and uncover in order to get to truth then it just feels so unfair. It feels unjust. Like I am angry that we are so far removed from the truth, but I think this is why we are encouraged in scripture to search for truth as hidden treasure. To intently look into the perfect law. To search God with all of our hearts.

I think this is why there's reference to those scriptures. And we have to think if the writers are telling us this, and they're telling us this you know, thousands of years before now, then they must have known, you know, they must've had an inkling or an idea or shall I just say it an inspiration from the Most High God that led them to use that type of language. To encourage us, you know, that we're going to have to dig for this.

We're going to have to seek, we're going to have to search with all of our hearts.

And I'll talk about that a little bit more, but. Anyway. So I had started reading this book on what is God's name and it just shed so much light on the intimacy that I have with my Heavenly Father. And just being able to know his name or to know that his name isn't God, I feel like has shifted my walk and my relationship so much. And so I shared on Facebook that,

I can no longer just use the generic term of God to reference the Most High God. And for the sake of teaching and for the sake of where I'm at in this transition, you all will hear me use God but for the most part, my language has changed. And, um, when I started studying about God, obviously there's a domino effect.

You know, I began to learn, about Christ and how his name was transliterated and how it, in fact, wasn't transliterated at all and how it was basically replaced. And so. From my current point of understanding, which is always changing and it's always evolving and I'm always approaching the Word and studying and uncovering truth with just the knowledge that Hey, I don't know at all.

And there's a lot that we won't even know um, until the most high says it's time for everything to be revealed. But, you know, I'm going to do my very best to uncover lies and to expose darkness as much as I can. Um, some people think that it's really not that deep for us to know our Father's name. But when we begin to study and dive and to why his name was replaced in how it was replaced and, and how that connects to other doctrines.

I think for me personally, I just hold stronger my conviction of why I will be making a shift in my language. So I just want to share with you guys based off of my studies. Um, the name that I feel led to call. My heavenly father is Yahuah.

I believe that Yahuah is not only a Hebrew term, but it's actually the name of our God who, um, spoke to his people and Hebrew. Hebrew is a pure language. Hebrew is a language that Yahuah are used to speak to His people. And Hebrew is the language that His son, our Messiah used to speak to His people as well.

And that's not to say that our Messiah um, didn't speak in two different languages, but, uh, we definitely can see through scriptures. I haven't studied too deeply into this topic specifically, but even when we observe scriptures in acts

That reference when our Messiah spoke to Paul on the road to Damascus, we see that he spoke in a Hebrew dialect.

That is my current understanding. And this person that we know as Jesus Christ, I believe that His name is Yahusha and That is how you guys will hear me referencing our heavenly father and our Messiah in a lot of future episodes, but you guys might hear me say things like, um, you know, the Most High God or Heavenly Father or you might hear me referencing, Yahusha as our Messiah.

Um, So I just wanted to kind of clarify that. And if anybody is interested in that book again, Send me a direct message and I will send you the link to the book that the ebook is free. And of course I've been hesitant about sharing certain resources. Because I want to be sure that I am sharing things that are biblically accurate. And I don't want to be responsible for leading people down a path of lies. Uh, just quite frankly. But I also realize that it's not my job to, um, bring people to truth per se. Um, what I know that my role is, and this season is truly planting seeds and helping to water seeds. And trusting that the Holy Spirit is going to bring the revelation and bring understanding to those who are seeking truth and to those who are humbling themselves before the Most High.

So again, send me a DM and I can share with you the name of the podcast. And the name of that book um, that I have been reading.

I'm inviting you on this journey with me. Um, I don't want to take a position of, um, spiritual authority by any means. I am just.

I'm just a common woman. There's nothing special about me. I don't want you to look to me as your spiritual authority. I am approaching my journey with so much humility. And realizing that there might be something that I might come back to a year from now and share with you that Hey the holy spirit has given me further understanding on this

and so I want to expound and clarify on some things that I previously taught. That He is teaching me, but. If I didn't hold true to the concept that I should not be referencing the Most High God, simply as God, then I wouldn't be bringing it to, um, you guys in the season and sharing, um, the things that I'm learning in this season. But again, I invite you to walk along this journey with me. I will say if you're walking this journey with me, it's going to be very, very important that you remove the idea of attaching labels to people. So it's very interesting because I learned very quickly that when people hear certain things, we gather up associations about that set thing. And we began to make all of these assumptions about people based off of those labels, So I'll share with you specifically

something that I experienced very recently. So I'm in a coffee shop and I'm reading my Bible. I'm studying my Bible. I'm reading this book on what is God's name? And I see this man next to me, and he's also reading his Bible and I just thought, wow, how cool. Like how cool that we're just sitting here in the coffee shop. And we're reading our Bibles.

So I just made some mention to him. About, I don't remember it was some corny statement about how, you know, Ooh, the Bible is good, isn't it? Or I don't know, y'all I can't remember exactly. But it led us into this discussion about what we were studying and he began to share with me what he was studying.

And I began to share what I was studying and I was sharing with him how I was studying the name of God and. Um, it led to all of these questions. Um, that I believe were also assumptions that he made about me.

He started to connect me with a movement called the Hebrew roots movement. I have never heard about this moment. And honestly, I don't know a lot about the movement. Um, but based off of the questions that he started asking me, I don't know that I want to be tied to the movement. But he started asking me, well, do you believe that Jesus is God and do you believe that Christ is our Messiah and. Do you believe that only you can be saved and um, all it took was for him to know, and to realize that I was studying God's name um, to just immediately label me and associate me with the movement. That SA it sounds, it sounds like a lot of principles of the movement do not align with what I believe about the Bible. But again, I haven't done a lot of studying on the movement.

And so I realize too a lot of people speak out of ignorance. And I don't say that to be rude, but we just speak out of like, not knowing. Um, there's a lot of things that I'm ignorant about, but. I say all that to say that. I want you guys to please, if you're going on this journey with me, I realized that some of you are likely listening to the podcast episode. And you might be critiquing everything that I'm saying.

And you might be having conversations with your friends or your spouses, or you might be having conversations, just sharing. You know about where I am and the things that I am declaring in my faith, because it is, it's a radical shift. And that's okay. But I would encourage you to check the motive of your heart for why you're here, why you're listening in. Um, I would encourage you that if you're going on this journey with me, Um, test everything that I'm saying. By all means, because this is the concept that I'm getting into how it's important for us to do that.

It's important for us to test what we are being told. What's being presented to us. What's being taught. Um, if we are truly going to take ownership of our spiritual walk and our spiritual health. We can not lean on others that we might view as an authority, you can't look at me and say, oh, well, she's done all this research on the name of God.

So it must be true. And now I'm going to adapt what she's saying and what she's teaching. No, no, no, no, no. We're not. We're not going to do that. So. I again, encourage you to just truly examine why you're here with me examine why you're coming down this road with me. Why we are taking this journey together. And I want to challenge you to, um, disassociate me from any labels that you might have in your mind?

And I think this is the perfect segue for what I was going to address next. But a lot of times, again, we hear something and we hear a label and we associate certain things with that label in our mind, and then we need to deuce and we make assumptions on what that person thinks or what that person believes based off of you know, the label. And so going into this journey, we can't do that.

I'm going to tell y'all right now. We can't do that. Okay. Um, I don't want to have to feel like I am defending the lies that people make up about me in their head about what I believe. Um, last week I have just made a post about how I can no longer call myself a Christian. I can no longer label myself as a Christian. And this statement stemmed similarly to, um, the statement that I made about no longer calling the Most High God, simply God, our Lord. Um, similarly, a few years ago, I really began to wrestle with just the term Christian. Um, and I shared this with my best friend.

It had to been at least three, four years ago. And I started sharing this with my husband and. They, they provided a space to hear me, but I think that especially my husband has been concerned with. Um, just the way that I have challenged and question things over time. But I feel like recently he might be coming into the realization and the appreciation that I do question and challenge um, a lot of concepts. Anyways. I made a statement, how I can no longer call myself a Christian and it's for similar reasons.

Um, Christian can literally mean anything. There are billions, I believe billions of Christians in the world. Um, I will have to Google this statistic, but Christian is the dominant religion in our society. And Christian can mean anything. Christian can mean that you're a child of God and you follow Christ. Christian can mean that you're a Catholic. Uh,

christianity has a lot of different denominations. Um, the religion of Christianity has really shown itself to be confusing and what I believe to be a confrontational. We have all these different denominations because people are so. They are so convicted that what they believe about a certain concept is true.

And then they go and they form, um, a church because they can no longer associate themselves with the church that was teaching the thing that they didn't believe to be true. And now we have a million denominations and so.

 

For me, I just, there's a lot of reasons. And it started with realizing that Christian can mean anything to anybody.

And I don't want to associate myself with that label.

 

 

 

What I want people to know and understand about me and believe about me is that I am a child of Yahuah and I am a follower and an imitator of Yahusha I believe the whole Bible.

I believe that the whole Bible applies to me as a modern day believer.

From my current understanding the Bible that we hold in our hands, I believe has errors. I believe based off of my studies, based off of my research, based off of my understanding. That. The Most High inspired his word to people and they wrote that word.

And over time that word was tainted or that word was mistranslated. And we can see that clearly when we open our Bibles. For a long time, I was reading the NASB version and when I read my Bible verses that are referring to the Most High God that are referring to Yahuah, I'm going to see God. And I'm going to see God used for the term of Yahuah and Yahusha. And I'm going to see titles like Lord. And so I believe unpacking how we got here helped me to realize that there were some gross errors along the way that happened when the scribes began to translate.

And not only that we have to realize that, that the original word that was inspired by a Yahuah. Um, there were many people over a very, very long time that worked to bring that word to us in what we now hold as the Bible. And that is what we call the canonization of the Bible. And I believe that there were a lot of errors that happened and that the enemy had a hand in how the Bible that we hold in our hand was canonized. And again, I have been studying this for a few months now.

I did not come into this information intently and intentionally seeking- you know, I'm going to study the Bible. I'm going to start this study on the Bible and I'm going to dig it into all the translations of the Bible. But. It's just organically happened over the last year as I began questioning about the name of God.

And when I began questioning, you know, the term Christianity. And, um, as I started asking more questions and really. Just coming from a place where I want nothing in my life, but to please the Most High God. This information just organically um, was presented to me. Like I mentioned to you guys before a couple of months ago, when I had entered into a fast, somebody dropped this podcast episode into my lap and it was exactly speaking to my spiritual journey. And it eventually led me into studying the name of God and throughout the study of the name of God, um, there was so much information about how the name of God was translated and what that translation meant to, um, translations of the Bible as a whole.

And that's how I came into my current understanding. And like I said, my current understanding is evolving.

I think the one thing that makes this so, so evident. Is the very fact that our Bibles do not contain the name of the Most High God. Or the name of our Messiah. And some people say, well it's because, you know, we speak English and those names were Hebrew and because I have studied this topic.

I just cannot believe that. I just cannot believe that those names no longer matter. And when I look all throughout scripture about what Yahuah who says about his name and how it will be restored. And how people will be delivered through His name. Um, how there is power in his name? I think that it helps me to realize that the enemy had influence in the way that our Bibles were translated and, in the way that the scriptures were canonized.

But again, I'm here to plant seeds. Um, I'm here. Maybe water, some seeds. I want you guys to, to maybe dig into this on your own. Again, I can share with you the resources that I have been using. I don't have full understanding on this topic. I am learning, but with everything and all the information that I have presented before me. I, I just, I just cannot believe that the Bible that we hold is, is without error. And I want to clarify, I believe that the word that Yahuah gave to the authors and that he inspired. I believe that that was 100% inerrant . We see that the word of Yahuah does not contradict itself. We see that the word that was inspired to the authors never contradicts itself. Um, yet. We have a lot of believers who feel that the Bible does contradict itself.

And I would submit to you that the reason for that is because there's this disconnect in understanding. Um, just how faulty some of these translations are and not only are our translations faulty. But, uh, I believe it has influenced, um, the different doctrines that Christianity holds. I believe that a lot of doctrines of Christianity are truly doctrines of men. And our Messiah warns about this.

When we read mark chapter seven, verse six. It said, rightly did Isaiah prophesy of you hypocrites as it is written these people honor me with their lips. But their heart is far from me. But in vain, do they worship me? Teaching as doctrines the precepts of men. So. This is a scripture. Oh, let me finish that.

I don't want to stop there. Verse eight says neglecting the commandment of God you hold to the tradition of men. So we have to realize what's happening here. The Messiah is quoting words from a prophet from the prophet Isaiah that was prophesied likely hundreds of years prior. And forgive me if I have that timeline wrong, but. I am still learning and grasping the timeline of scriptures.

And when certain things were written,

so again, just forgive me and be gracious with me, but our Messiah is warning us about these hypocrites,

When we read this passage, we have to know who the Messiah is talking to. He's talking to the Pharisees and the scribes. And the Pharisees and scribes are basically challenging him asking him why don't your disciples walk according to the tradition of their elders and this is how he responds to them.

He says that they are hypocrites. He tells them that you guys are honoring me with your lips, but your heart , far from me. He says that you're worshiping me in vain. You're neglecting the commandments of God and you're holding onto the traditions of men. And. I think I'll get into this maybe uh, in a Bible study or a future episode.

Cause it's too, it's just too much to get into this now. And this episode is already running a little long, but.

I want you all to realize that our Messiah was warning us about these doctrines of men during the time that He walked. And when we begin to study history, and when we begin to unpack how the Assyrian captivity and the Babylonian captivity, how all of those things shaped. Christianity today. Then we can come to a fuller understanding.

And. So I don't, again, I don't want to dive too deeply into this. I'm I'm here and I'm open. If you guys have any questions, this might lead me and guide me into where we go in our weekly Bible studies. But. I want you all to understand. That over. Time over thousands of years.

The traditions of men have infiltrated. Almost every religious system.

Um, the traditions of men have infiltrated Judaism. The traditions of men have infiltrated Christianity.

And if our Messiah is warning us about these traditions of men that do not align with Yahuah's commandments and His Word and his Torah. And they don't align with the inspired word of Yahuah

then I feel like that that's something that we need to pay attention to. And. Labeling myself as a Christian goes deeper than, oh, well, Christian can mean anything. I can no longer align myself with Christianity because I have come to the very.

Disheartening realization that Christianity is filled with doctrines of men. That pull people away from this covenant relationship that we've entered into when we say that we follow the Most High God.

I've come to the realization that. These traditions of men. Have pulled us away from truly not only following our Messiah. But being imitators of our Messiah. And that is what I am striving for in my walk and my relationship. It goes beyond loving others.

For me, it goes beyond just believing and having faith. This walk. It's it, it goes deeper and we should be seeking to go deeper. Paul compares this walk. As a race. Where we should be pressing forward. We should be striving to press towards the mark of the high calling. And. Yahusha our Messiah gave us what that mark should look like.

 

He gave us the goal. He literally came to earth and walked a life to give us an example of how we should live as those who imitate him. And we have to understand deeply what that word imitate means. A lot of us refer to us as followers of Christ. But followers are not those who just follow along per se.

When you became a follower of a rabbi, when the disciples became followers of their rabbi, they literally sought out to learn everything that the rabbi knew and not only learn everything that the rabbi knew, but to do everything that the rabbi did, they literally became imitators of their rabbi. And that paints a beautiful picture for the life that we are to live for those of us who say that we follow Yahusha and you who should gave us a goal.

He gave us a mark. He showed us how to live. He tells us that he did not come to abolish the law or the prophets, but he came to fulfill it. And might I suggest you to really study and understand what that word fulfill means and its original text. Because a lot of traditions of men teach that, that word fulfill means to be complete. And that it's finished with that.

It's nailed to the cross that it no longer applies to us. And really when we begin to study that word in its full meaning, we realized that that word fulfill that he came to fulfill the law it means to fill to the fullest. To bring its most full meaning. So when we see this back and forth dialogue between the Pharisees and our Messiah, and they're challenging him on the law, he is challenging them because he says their hearts are far from Him because

they are following the instructions of Yahuah that we find in the law, the Torah. Um, but not only were they following that, if we do a little bit of research, we can understand and come to the deduction that they are not only following, um, the Torah, but not only are they following those, they have included their traditions of men and they are teaching others that they should be following the traditions of men. So not only is our Messiah rebuking them and confronting them about the traditions of men that have infiltrated their doctrine but He is challenging them also in their heart posture

and that's the one aspect that I do believe that a lot of Christians pick up on. Is this saying that it's what matters is our heart and our motivation. And I'm here to submit to you that our Messiah took both, to very high regard. Our obedience and our heart.

Our obedience. gives us an opportunity to reflect our heart posture

 

that's why we see all throughout scriptures. Where our Messiah saying, if you love me, keep my commandments. Because he was about his Father's business and everything that He did pointed to His Father. If you love me, keep my commandments. What does it mean to love God with all of your heart and your soul in mind?

Keeping his commandments. So, again, this is stuff that we can dive into during our Bible studies, but. This ultimately is the reason why I can no longer associate myself with the label of Christianity. Again, I feel that labels, um, can be very confusing. I feel that they are divisive. I feel that they are dangerous.

I feel that Christianity holds true to a lot of doctrines that do not align with the word of Yahuah. I feel that Christianity as a whole, and I can't speak to all Christians and this is another reason why it's hard when we use labels. Um, I have a lot of friends who are Christians.

Um, a lot of people that I love, I was once a Christian and I once held strongly to that label. Um, but. Breaking free from that label. I believe. Really delivered me in some aspects because once I broke free from that label, It no longer became about my association. I no longer have to worry about um, Positioning my stance to align with Christianity per se. I want my stance and my walk to reflect the Most High God, because that's the way that our Messiah walked everything that he did pointed us. Two. Um, Yahuah.

And when we study the name of Yahuah and Yahusha even further, it's so beautiful to know that. The name Yahusha actually means Yahuah is our deliver. So when we understand that and when we go deeper and when we dig deeper, We're just brought to so much more understanding about the scriptures and the thing that our Messiah was trying to teach his disciples and how it's relevant to us as we are disciples of him in this current, modern day.

So.

Hopefully that brings a little bit of understanding. I think it's so important for us to reclaim our spiritual health and no longer rely on those who we've been told for so long you know, they're the experts. They went to seminary. There are pastors. So, you know, we can't lean on them as a crutch.

You guys, we just can't. Part of your healing journey is coming into reconciliation with the fact that a lot of what you are dealing with in your physical health in your mental health in your emotional health has to do with the disconnect from your spiritual health.

This is a time where I want to challenge you. to truly submit To the God that you say that you worship and to truly imitate um, The Messiah that you say that you follow. When I did this in my walk. It completely and radically changed me.

I am not the same person. It trickled down into every single aspect about me. I received deliverance and healing from depression. And some of that healing started before I came into realization and truth. And before I truly submitted myself to Yahuah and said that I was going to walk in his ways and that I was going to trust him no matter what, because he's just that gracious. And he's just that loving. And it is not his will that any should perish, but that we should all should come into repentance and turning away from a lifestyle that separates us from Him that is truly His will for our lives. When I began to do that, every single aspect of my life began to change. I once struggled with postpartum rage. And flying off the handle with my kids every single night. I would work so hard to be patient and loving with them all throughout the day. But by the end of the night, I was exhausted. And, you know, I tried to be gentle with them at the beginning of nighttime routine and, you know, an hour would pass and I would just be at my wit's end, yelling at them.

And then once they finally went to sleep, I would be in my bed crying. Because of the guilt that consumed me. Because I could not break free from this cycle of rage that then produced guilt. I was lacking self-control I was angry. I was depressed. I was anxious. All of these strongholds in my life have fallen off. When I decided to take my spiritual health in my own hands and no longer lukewarm it out. No longer say that, Hey, going to church is enough. Or, you know, relying on my pastors is enough or, um, you know, I'm only going to study the word to get the knowledge because I want to be able to fight people in the scriptures and hold my stance and hold true to my stance and hold true to my Christianity.

No when I change and I said that I'm going to allow the living word of Yahuah to Pierce my heart into my flesh, to the point to where I would change anything and give up anything. As long as I was pleasing him with my walk. When I decided that.

That's when things began to radically shift and I no longer deal with this identity crisis of you know, my morality. And everything within me wants to give up these strongholds that are dominating my life, the sin it's sin. If the Bible tells us that a fruit of the spirit is love, joy, peace kind, gentleness self-control.

And if I can't even show up with these fruits on the day-to-day in the way that I interact with my children, then what spirits in my operating out of. And how is it that these spirits are dominating my life?

When I say that I'm a believer and then I'm a follower of Christ and a follower and a child of God.

So guys, I can go into this. Um,

But the thing I want to challenge you with, and I know this episode is long as I'm going to wrap it up.

We have to take every single aspect of our health and our hands. And I know for some of you, that's going to sound draining and tiring because our responsibility load is so high. We don't have anybody who's pouring into us. We're doing this alone. We're trucking it alone in life. We're responsible for our homes.

We're responsible for our children and responsible for the doctor's appointments, the meal planning, the prepping of meals. You know, the laundry. You know, how can we have time to even get in the word and dig in the word? How could, how do we even have time to do that? And so I would challenge you to shift your mindset and understand that we can't do it alone.

You can't do it alone. We need community. We need accountability. We need, um, women around us who work going to uplift us, encourage us, validate us help to lighten our load. Um, whether that's from a spiritual aspect or an actual hands-on aspect. Um, but it's time to change and it's time to shift. The only way that you were going to take your health back into your hands, including your spiritual health is if you come to the realization that you cannot do this alone, and that you have to depend on community. And that's what the eternal postpartum movement is all about.

That's why I've created this community. You have me, and you have women who are going on a similar journey with you who are ready to uphold you and uplift you. And to bear those burdens with you. And so I invite you to join us in this movement.

I invite you to join us In the eternal postpartum movement where. I am truly doing everything that I can to support mothers and to support providers um, in reclaiming collectivism wellness and support through the infinite chapters of postpartum. So again, I'm going to link my Facebook profile into the show notes.

I want you to send me a DM. If you are truly ready to hop on board with us, if you know that this year has to look differently. For you um, whether it be your spiritual health, whether it be physically, mentally, Emotionally. If you know that something has to change and you are ready to walk into a community that's going to support you and propel you through that change.

I want you to send me a DM and let me know you're ready. Okay.

If you're not ready. That's okay. I understand. I want to invite you to join our Facebook community, where, um, I'm in there often giving encouragement, giving insight, giving tips, and again, we are just working to reclaim collectivism support in wellness and so I invite you to join that community as well. And I'm wishing you so much love and light

as you continue this journey and reclaiming wellness in every single aspect of your health. And I want you to remember that this is a journey. It's a process we're not going to get it all down, but just continue to make small micro changes. Because when we do that consistently, it makes a really big impact on our health. So I'm signing off and I will see you in the next episode.